The Dilemma

Hi Everyone,

I’m a graduate student now. I’m studying Counselor Education to become a Licensed Professional Counselor. Can you see the dilemma already?

Most people know that many counselor’s have a lifetime of therapy experience and that some of the best therapists are the one’s that have done the most work on their mental health. But there is a difference between knowing this and Knowing this. One day in the not so distant future, I am going to be a counselor. I will judiciously share with my clients parts of myself and my past that help develop the therapeutic relationship and advance the client’s own therapeutic work. I will not give them all the gory details. I will not give them my diagnoses, my list of medications, my history of hospitalizations. But that is exactly what this blog does. It gives the world my whole sordid past.

Now, I and many others would argue that my past and the work I’ve done and continue to do on myself will make me a good therapist. It takes one to know one, as the saying goes. But the ethics of self-disclosure are specific. Therapy is about the client, not about the therapist. So what happens when my future clients hop onto the internet and google me? What will they think when they find these stories that I have written, these truths that I have revealed about myself? Will they find me more or less worthy of being their confidant? Will they find me more or less relevant? Will it impede their progress or advance it?

I have been a student since June 2016. I haven’t written much since then because of this dilemma I am feeling. I built this blog to be honest about my experience and maybe help some people feel less alone in the world. I hope that I can find a way to continue to do this while also serving my clients’ best interests. Thank you for continuing to support me as I figure out this new chapter in my life.