In honor of World Bipolar Day, here is my “Ten Things Only people with Bipolar Disorder 2 Understand” from a few months ago. Bipolar I and Bipolar II are very different versions of the same disorder. Are you or someone you know bipolar? Share your stories in honor of World Bipolar Day.
- What people think: You have intense manic episodes where you spend lots (and lots) of money on random crap. What’s true: A manic episode means you might smile a few times and have energy to the dishes, take a shower, clean the house, run errands, make dinner, and participate in one of your hobbies. In other words, sometimes “mania” makes you normal and sometimes mania just makes you angry.
- You do not understand how people with Bipolar 1 can suffer from a sense of superiority. You go to sleep every day congratulating yourself on only being antisocial rather than a complete shithead.
- You never know if mania will make you happier or just give energy to your sadness, anger, fear, frustration with life. Sometimes, mania makes you a complete shithead.
- You have to explain your diagnosis to your current psychiatrist and you’ve been on more medications than he or she has heard of because it took forever for someone to finally settle on a diagnosis.
- You have medications for every part of your day: Put you to sleep, wake you up, give you energy, calm you down.
- Lithium does not help you.
- You blame all the problems in your life on your mental illness. If you weren’t bipolar, you’d actually do things. Right?
- After a while, you can see the bipolar depression coming. It’s like a whirling blackhole toilet of doom that slowly pulls you in until all you can see is shit.
- Antidepressants made you feel worse and mood stabilizers don’t make you feel any different, except for the side effects. The side effects suck.
- Bipolar 1 doesn’t sound so bad. At least you’d get to feel good more of the time.
To learn more about Bipolar 2 Disorder and mental health in general, visit the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance.
If you think you might have Bipolar 2 Disorder, visit this site and bring the information to your psychiatrist.
This post originally appeared on January 11, 2015 under the heading “10 Things Only People with Bipolar II Understand”