I recently read a book called One Second After by William R. Forstchen. Here is the description from Amazon.com:
New York Times best selling author William R. Forstchen now brings us a story which can be all too terrifyingly real…a story in which one man struggles to save his family and his small North Carolina town after America loses a war, in one second, a war that will send America back to the Dark Ages…A war based upon a weapon, an Electro Magnetic Pulse (EMP). A weapon that may already be in the hands of our enemies.
While I was reading the book and for a while after (and still a little from time to time) I found myself increasingly concerned about being prepared for a society-ending event like this. How would we survive? Would we have enough food? water? Would we be safe? Could we survive without a gun for hunting and protection?
The gun question is a big one for me. E is in the military and obviously has gun training, but he’s not a gun enthusiast. I am also not a gun enthusiast. E took me shooting a couple of times and it makes me very nervous. I don’t like the idea of anyone having that kind of violent power under their pillow. But in a world that William R. Forstchen creates, guns are life-saving and non-optional tools for feeding a community and protecting your family from a complete breakdown of society.
We won’t be getting a gun.
Anyway, there is a second book, but I was so freaked out by the first one that I’ve decided not to read it. The first book stays with me in more ways than one, but lately I’ve found that the way it has stayed with me the most is surprising.
I am completely and utterly terrified that if the world comes to an end, I will run out of yarn. Yup, yarn. Nevermind that if something happens I will have far more to worry about than not having enough yarn to knit. I prefer to focus on the fact that if our society breaks down, we will be forced to go back to pre-industrial clothing, which will include knitting for warmth. In a post-apocalyptic society, knitted items will be in high demand and if I don’t have all of the yarn, then I won’t be able to participate in this new industry. I find myself itching to buy more, surfing my favorite online yarn stores for yarn deals to bulk up my stash. I know it’s irrational. Yarn wouldn’t save me in the event of an apocalypse. Perhaps yarn is manageable? More manageable than trying to figure out how to keep my family fed, watered, warm, and safe in the face of unknown dangers and challenges.
Knitting keeps me calm (see: Knitting prevents knifing), helps manage my anxiety, keeps me productive when I’m depressed or feeling ill, and generally brings me joy. Yarn is pivotal to knitting’s ability to do these things.
Do you have any anxiety that seems less than logical?