Missing: Social Skills, If found, please call…

As my depression lifts and I start to feel more a part of the world, I find I’m experiencing something of a void. My life has been so dominated by mental illness for so long. Now there is a huge hole in my life where the depression once resided. I have more energy and am more interested in the world, but I don’t know what to do with that energy.

I am still afraid to commit to things and people. The depression has not disappeared completely; I still have days where it is hard to get out of bed. And never knowing when those days are going to crop up, I worry. And this makes it even harder to find things to do with my time. I am still living in the shadow of mental illness.

I spend time wandering around stores just for the experience of being out among people. I smother my husband with attention because he is the only person I see every day. Beyond that, I live much of my life alone.

I hope as my depression continues to lift that my social skills will find their way back to me.

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4 thoughts on “Missing: Social Skills, If found, please call…

  1. I’ve been going through exactly the same thing. I used to be a social butterfly, but once the depression lifted I could barely speak coherently. What I can tell you is that it gets better with practice. The more you engage with others, slowly those old skills come back to you. The ability is there, it just needs to be taken out for a test drive. Just keep putting yourself out there. Good luck!

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